Yes. The apology is for you, not for him. Thereโs nothing in it for him to hear your apology. Leave him be until he reaches out and wants to talk to you.
A good standard for a boyfriend is “Is this man at least as careful of my feelings as my friends are? As I am of his? Does he act like he loves me, as opposed to what I bring to the table? Does he support me in dealing with my problems, rather than aggravating them or causing me more? Does he help me become my best self?”
TL;DR: Your boyfriend is not a good boyfriend in general, and especially not for you in particular. Please find someone whose personal baggage doesn't add to your own.
Yes. The apology is for you, not for him. Thereโs nothing in it for him to hear your apology. Leave him be until he reaches out and wants to talk to you.
A good standard for a boyfriend is “Is this man at least as careful of my feelings as my friends are? As I am of his? Does he act like he loves me, as opposed to what I bring to the table? Does he support me in dealing with my problems, rather than aggravating them or causing me more? Does he help me become my best self?”
TL;DR: Your boyfriend is not a good boyfriend in general, and especially not for you in particular. Please find someone whose personal baggage doesn't add to your own.
I would want you to do it today.
You might slightly improve matters by gifting her the trip for herself and a friend if that is feasible.