I actually (28F) and my fiancé (39M) are supposed to get married within 5 months, but….

There is discuss the loss of a loved one to sucide in this story.

I (28F) and my fiancé Ben (39M) are planning a wedding for this summer. We have been involved for just over 1 year, inside a relationship for almost 6 years.

Around one year into our own relationship, I lost my father to suicide. His dying blindsided my entire as well as left me feeling hopeless. We struggled to go back to work right after his death, and Ben pushed me to go back, proclaiming, “The world doesn' big t stop just because your father died. ” We had various fights over this time, We begged for us to go to married couples counseling, but ben refused. During this time, I struggled seriously with suicidal thoughts and has been manic depressive.

Ben and I were struggling to communicate, and 5 several weeks after my dad' s i9000 passing, I met somebody Scott (29M). Scott and am began talking when we would certainly run into each other in person, friendly at first. We begin speaking over social media frequently. Quickly, these messages turned flirty, and I decided I required to end my relationship along with Ben. I ended my relationship with Ben, which was very difficult due to the fact that when We brought up breaking up, he changed his mind about guidance. Ben said he would do anything to stay together, yet I ended it.

Soon, after ending my romantic relationship with Ben, I rested with Scott. I regretted this immediately and noticed that Scott wasn' t the particular nice guy I thought he was. I decided to simply focus on myself, but Bill was still messaging me during this time, trying to find a way to get back together.

I decided to try to work things out along with Ben, and during this time, he was aware that I had previously been talking along with Scott. One night, Ben asked me point blank what happened with Scott, and if I had slept with your pet. I told him the reality and that I had slept along with him after we broke up. We had the worst combat we had ever had that night because Ben considered this particular cheating, and I, too, this very day still feel bad regarding hurting him.

We made a decision to give our relationship an additional chance, and over the next year, we took things slow. I knew that both of us had unresolved feelings toward everything that happened after my father passed, but we do try to communicate and get past it.

Over the next couple years, we had gotten our relationship to a great place. So he suggested, and I said yes.

Now here comes his brother. I had told Ben that I did not want his brother Jack (42M) to be in our wedding party. Jack challenges with mental health and substance abuse. He regularly relapes and sends rude or harmful messages to his family. Jack always apologizes whenever he is sober the next day, and no one in the family holds him accountable for his activities. One of the previous messages that will made me not want him in the wedding was phoning me a $5 whre.

Jack hit a whole new level this past week. He sent many messages to a group chat with Ben and their dad. Jack sent messages that said the following:

“Get banged *my name, you are a massive whre, go fuck your self, your mom is a wh*re too”

“She cheated you, lied about it, that' t unforgivable”

“All she is is really a God damn service fee”

There is a very ill wished comment that was included here that I won' t replicate.

“These people kill themselves”

Ben verbally brought up that his brother was messaging under the influence again, yet wouldn' t let me view the messages, so I got their phone and looked to get myself.

I was emaciated to see the awful things Jack port said about me, yet I was shocked to see that Ben didn' t stand for me once. He said things like “why so aggressive towards her” or mentioned nothing at all.

I told your pet that I do not want to have the 50 year marrige with someone who doesn' t stand up for me, and he brushed me personally off the first time.

We took my ring off, put in back in the box, and repeated myself. This time, he or she realized that I was serious. This individual did sit down and talk to me about my emotions, but we haven' big t talked much about it next.

I will admit that I feel still pissed.

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