Your partner is a physically abusive asshole, and you need to prioritise your own safety. There's no fixing people like him, and him lecturing you about it being your fault speaks volumes. He's responsible for his actions, not you.
When I was in a physically abusive relationship, being choked was actually the final straw for me that gave me the strength to leave. The risk of being killed by your partner goes up astronomically when something like that happens. There's a very thin line there.
Him begging you for forgiveness is nothing more than emotional manipulation. Leaving is the only option you should be considering.
You don't let him know you're going to be leaving. You simply leave. You owe no explanation. What's important is your safety. There are domestic violence hotlines that can advise you on making a plan.
Did you think he was watching old people porn?
Please get out of this relationship.
Your partner is a physically abusive asshole, and you need to prioritise your own safety. There's no fixing people like him, and him lecturing you about it being your fault speaks volumes. He's responsible for his actions, not you.
When I was in a physically abusive relationship, being choked was actually the final straw for me that gave me the strength to leave. The risk of being killed by your partner goes up astronomically when something like that happens. There's a very thin line there.
Him begging you for forgiveness is nothing more than emotional manipulation. Leaving is the only option you should be considering.
You don't let him know you're going to be leaving. You simply leave. You owe no explanation. What's important is your safety. There are domestic violence hotlines that can advise you on making a plan.