Open your mouth and ask her to teach you what she likes. Don't be afraid to use toys or anything else that she suggests, be GGG (Good in bed would you get through communication, Giving equal time and equal pleasure, and Game for anything—within reason.) Learn take pleasure in being able to give her pleasure in whatever form works best for her and remember that your penis isn't the center of your relationship's sex life. Your whole post makes me question if you're too caught up on the sex and not enough on being a good partner in this relationship. I also think your insecurities are amplified by the fact that she had one last hurray before she “officially” became exclusive with you.
To manipulate you. Yikes.
Open your mouth and ask her to teach you what she likes. Don't be afraid to use toys or anything else that she suggests, be GGG (Good in bed would you get through communication, Giving equal time and equal pleasure, and Game for anything—within reason.) Learn take pleasure in being able to give her pleasure in whatever form works best for her and remember that your penis isn't the center of your relationship's sex life. Your whole post makes me question if you're too caught up on the sex and not enough on being a good partner in this relationship. I also think your insecurities are amplified by the fact that she had one last hurray before she “officially” became exclusive with you.
She cheated lied and is gaslighting. Talk to a few lawyers